Friday, January 31, 2014

The boys' first birthday!

January 23rd marked the boys' first year! We did it, we made it an entire year as parents of twins and kept our sanity too.... ok maybe that's to be determined HA!

Obviously their birthday celebration was far different from the 1st birthday we celebrated for Gabriel.  I actually had my babies here to celebrate this one.

Their birthday fell on a Thursday this year, so we did cupcakes at home to celebrate.  Then we had a small party on the Saturday after and invited friends and family to come celebrate with us.

Here's some photos for you to enjoy :)


Birthday Cupcakes: 



Logan

Sawyer


Birthday Party
 

Cake









Logan

Sawyer



First birthday photos 


Sawyer

Logan

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Another due date come and gone.

Time is getting by me... So this post is a bit delayed.

January 4th marked the 2 year anniversary of the day Gabriel was due.  Just another reminder of his absence in our lives.  Each anniversary date is a harsh reality that we don't hold our son in our arms anymore, not our first son anyway.

I know these dates will always come and I'll never forget them as time goes on.  I know that each year I will remember him on the anniversary of his due date, even though he wasn't born on that day.  I hoped to carry him to 40 weeks despite his diagnosis, even though that didn't happen I am grateful for all the timeI did get to carry him

As time goes on I get more and more emails from p families that have found my blog.  I'm so glad they feel open to reaching out to me and seeking help in their journey.  There's nothing more important than reaching out and realizing you are not alone in the journey you travel. Having the love and support of others is one thing that keeps a person sane, no matter what stage of the journey you are experiencing.

Because I receive so many emails at this point, I've decided to open a Facebook group where the families that email me can gather and hopefully get support and love from others traveling similar loss journeys.  I realized in an email today that I am not always going to be the best person to help another, sometimes someone else in the circle I've surrounded myself with can relate better. I really try to keep in touch with the families that contact me as best I can, but as that list gets longer and longer it gets harder and harder.  So I'm seeking the help of all these families, that they may be able to support each other as much as I try to support them.  If you are interested in joining feel free to email me and let me know. It is geared towards late term losses, whether that be an adverse diagnosis such as Potter's Syndrome, or another cause like incompetent cervix.  I hope it'll become a place where we can gather and support each other during good times and bad.  A place where we can give virtual hugs and celebrate rainbow babies.  A place where a person can vent and release emotions when the rest of the world doesn't understand.

Gabriel is making waves in people's lives, I'm grateful that his memory lives on and I have been provided an opportunity to show love and support to others who need it.